Well, I said I needed to post so here I am. I can’t seem to post in the thick of things when all is beyond my head. So to get us started I’m going to bring the crazy blonde out of me to just see what comes out…closing eyes now. If you don’t want to read, just go..you’ve been warned.
I finally went to my doctors and requested something for my nerves and lack of hormones. I did have a hysterectomy way back when. He told me that he would have expected me about a year and a half ago to ask for something. He’s been dealing with Jason as well and sees all the hospital reports coming in.
I have to tell you that I finally found a family doctor that I love. He always asks about each of the family members. He’s willing to answer all my questions and even in ways that I can understand. Today, I feel better after six days on this new med. I take it before I go to bed. I think Jason reacts to it as well since I’m calmer.
Well..love and behold when I saw the doctor I found out that I lost 16 lbs since December. I know I’ve lost 2 lbs as you can see over to the right of the blog but have no clue when the 14 lbs decided to leave my body but I’ll take it.
Let’s see where do we want to go next… Faith.
Faith is now in the News Team at school as well as the Running Team. Basically it means that I have to get up an hour earlier every day to drive her to school instead of her taking the bus. She’s in Chorus and she has tutoring two nights a week. That’s three nights a week that I have to pick her up after school as well where she used to take the bus home.
I’m super proud of her though for getting involved in school. I worry about her all the time becoming lost in the identity of “oh that’s Jason’s sister”. I feel guilty that Jason takes so much time up but we are in crisis mode. I pray things go to a happy medium some day.
Faith asked to go to the free reading camp again this year. That was an awesome camp last year, Reading Camp Rocks. Faith had an absolute blast. She went horseback riding, zip lining, swimming and she created a journal. In the morning, they did things to help with reading skills. Faith has issues with reading comprehension. The kids that were there had to be in second grade to fourth grade of that school year. Faith has one more year and she can’t wait to go back. If your child has reading issues, I really recommend that you check them out. (BTW my eyes had to be open to set up that link).
Here’s a blurp from their websites about requirements:
Reading Camp is a tuition-free summer program for struggling students. While admissions is need-blind, over 90% of the children accepted qualify for free or reduced lunches through the National School Lunch Program.
Children who meet some or all of the following criteria are eligible for Reading Camp:
Children who are currently in the 2nd-4th grade.
Children who are one or more grades behind in reading skills.
Children who don’t like to read or don’t choose to read independently
Children who feel like they’re “not good at school” or have low self-confidence.
I see they have camps in the following states as well…. Colorado, Georgia, Kentucky (Yeah me), Maryland, Michigan, New Jersey, Ohio, West Virginia, International…. check it out.
Where to next…let’s see..hubs
My husband is down about 50 lbs now. 50!!! to my little 16. Well I can say I’m jealous that he lost it but I can also say that I wouldn’t have wanted to lose it like he did. He was very sick. Today he’s a lot better and health concise. Thank God, the scare that he has been enough to make him take his health seriously.
He’s getting the boat ready for the fishing season most of his free time. Other than that he’s working hard.
If you’ve been reading, you’ve seen that Jason has been in and out of the hospital this month. I’ve realized today as I try to complete all the paperwork for the Michele P Waiver for respite care for Jason. He’s been in the hospital 4 times in the last twelve months. That’s really scary. I’m trying to get Medicaid to pay for some daycare for Jason in the summer so that he can have some structure part to his life. Let’s face it… I’m constantly running from here to there. We have therapy three nights a week. I need him to have something to replace the structure he has from school in the summer. Pray that I get it.
I guess it comes down to me now. I’m seriously working on a crime/thriller in my spare time. There I said it out loud. Truthfully, I use it to get away from the world. It’s my time down. It’s so completely not like my life that it’s a bizarre place for me to run. I’ve learned that I don’t do much other than the kids. I need to find new hobbies but where do you find such things when your life is a constant uproar.
I want to blog more but I find that when things are really bad that I hide. I don’t want to talk about the nasty things that come up. Like the possibility of Jason being put into a group home for three months so we can figure out how to help him. I’m terrified of that. He’s my baby boy and I don’t want to do that. Or that I fell literally apart when he threatened to kill himself but even more so when I realized it wasn’t just something he heard but what he truly thought about. It’s hard. It’s hard to think things you don’t want too. It’s hard to share them. It’s hard because truly in this position you don’t want to be judged. That’s the worst part being judged by others. I do my best. I love my son. But yet people think they can judge me. I wish for one day they could see what its like in my shoes but… Only if it was their child acting like Jason. I’m not allowing someone else to do my job with Jason. They don’t love him like I do.
Ok..off to bed with me.