Lately I have begun to realize that I only post positive things on here. Well my life hasn’t been positive as of late. I struggle with Jason, Faith, money and my husband. Sometimes I don’t even want to get up because I have so many things that need to be done.
I’ve made it a habit to make this blog about good things…positive. I have hidden all the bad times that I have experienced. It’s not easy having a son with mental disorders. I am always questioning every decision that they make. Because of the pressure that we have with his issues, my marriage has faltered in my own head many times. My husband and I are still very much in love but things are different now. Life has happened to us. It’s not that fresh love that we had. It’s deeper. It’s like two friends that know each other inside and out. You either love each other or you walk away. Neither of us is willing to walk away.
I love him and he loves me. Its that simple.
There will be blog changes coming up. I will talk about what its like to hear things about my son that I don’t want to hear. I will talk about the struggles as well. I refuse to let this blog die down because I am not positive right now. The only thing I know that I am positive about is that I will find a solution that we can live with for both of my kids.