“Til Death Do Us Part”are the words that you say when you get married.  Has anyone every considered just how finalizing those words?  The divorce rate is higher today than it has ever been.  It’s common for the kids to have friends that have divorced parents.  My kids are aware what a divorce is.

For the past weeks,they have become more aware of it.  Even though we try to keep quiet.  They’ve heard it said.  Don’t get me wrong I love my husband.  I love my family.  But I can’t tell you that we haven’t flopped it around saying it.  Financially we are having the rocks hit us in the tail end.  Our accountant actually told us that it would be better if we were divorced.  Come on…I said til death do us part.  Though lately I’ve been thinking about his death.. NOT REALLY.   I wouldn’t hurt him.  That would hurt my kids.

We have been married a very long time now…10 years.  We’ve been together 13 years going on forever.  He can say something to me that will set me off like a rocket.  I can do the same to him.  We do take time to ourselves.  Though not apart for long.. maybe a couple of hours.  Ultimately we love each other…I want to not be one of those divorced couples but I can’t guarantee that.

I’m what is called a “Cougar”.  I’m ten years older than him.  It didn’t make a difference earlier in our relationship but let me tell you it does now.  I’m not that energizer bunny I was when I met him but HE still is.  He never stops.  I want to stop and rest and think again.  I don’t want to go out in that uglllyyyyy heat.  I want to be inside.

But the bottom line still comes down to…. I love him and he loves me.
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I’ve been having a hard time getting back to this blog.  To be honest,I believe in my blog title but…things aren’t that rosy in my neck of the woods anymore.  Things are a little crazy.  Alright a lot crazy.  I love to write though.  I want to write for a living well with a side business until it starts paying off.  Will it I wonder?  I don’t know that answer.

I decided to look up some old bloggy friends.. pulling their websites up and I found out that not many of them are publishing as much as we did back then either.  In 2009,there were so many fresh blogs that I went to.  That posted daily.  They post maybe once a week if they survived.  Not many of them are posting daily now.  So I don’t feel so odd anymore.  See it feels like an outcast out here for me.  I feel like I’m not holding my end up and letting everyone down.  Which is funny since this blog is really for my kids so that they can see what life is like for me and them as they grow.  I lost my purpose and after this week I found it again.

Why do you blog?

School is starting back soon as well as sports coming soon.  The kids went to soccer camp this year for a few days.  Here is the problem…

Jason,my gorgeous little six year old boy,threw several tantrums.  He was in a group of kids between 4 and 6.  He was,also,one of the biggest kids on the field.   He was the only child that got this negative attention from the coach.  He was the only child that threw himself down on the soccer field because he wasn’t getting what he wants.

I have told him that he will not be in sports this season because of the tantrums.  I explained that he was the only one who threw the tantrums.  I explained that the coach shouldn’t have to deal with that.  I explained that the other kids would think he was a little baby if he did that on the field and that it wasn’t fair to them since it would take attention away from them negatively.  He listened to it all but the tantrums are getting worse.

Here’s where I’m asking for advice…what would you do?